"Therefore I, a prisoner for serving the Lord, beg you to lead a life worthy of your calling, for you have been called by God.
Always be humble and gentle. Be patient with each other, making allowance for each other’s faults because of your love.
Make every effort to keep yourselves united in the Spirit, binding yourselves together with peace.
For there is one body and one Spirit, just as you have been called to one glorious hope for the future.
There is one Lord, one faith, one baptism,one God and Father of all,
who is over all, in all, and living through all."
Lately, it is as though I am on that pottery wheel again as God is sculpting me into a beautiful vase. But I keep coming in and changing it's shape trying to conform to what others say I need to be. Often resulting in closing it up to where nothing can be poured in nor out.
So as of yesterday I have decided to take each opinion into account but really allow myself to listen for what God says about me and His plan for my life.
Jon has been having such a hard time these past few days. For 8 of them he was battling a fever of up to 104. It was thought to have been a virus but we have learned now that it is actually pneumonia. Normally this is something you can get medication for and be sent home while you get past it, but Jon's is much more serious than normal.
The doctors at White County hospital have sent Jon to UAMS and he will be getting lots of tests done as they try to find out why he has such bad pneumonia and how he got it.
"Don’t be afraid, for I am with you.
Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you.
I will hold you up with my victorious right hand."
So prayer warriors, please join me in praying over this sweetheart, that he may heal and continue to go out and be God's hands and feet.
I heard a poem recently and one of the lines he said was:
"I know God listens to my heartbeat on his iPod. It reminds him that we still got work to do."
Man has that been true in my life. Last night I was told that I am going through a learning phase when it comes to my walk with God, and if you knew me you know that statement couldn't be more true.
But that's the funny thing about the learning phase, you can only learn what you choose to let in your heart. My life has been boiling down to life altering decisions in my life, the kinds where if I go against God's path for me I'm sure to have scars that will carry themselves on my heart.
So I sit in my room talking to God, and I ask for His guidance... inevitably ignoring them because it's not what I want for my own life.
Yea, who else knows how that works out?
I suppose it's because God knew I was being stubborn, but last night I was asked to go to a lady from my church's home. Knowing she would be speaking wisdom I wasn't wanting to hear, I almost talked myself out of going. She explained to me that right now God is like a potter, sitting in His chair as I spin around and He molds me into the perfect shape. Lately, I have started to realize that I am acting as a tool of destruction determined to leave cracks in the beautiful creation because I don't agree with how it is being made.
So I sit in my room and talk to God and I ask for His guidance... now having no choice but to admit that I have heard Him speak to me. This is where my test lies. Am I going to be teachable or am I going to push His guidance aside for what my mind is telling me to do?
Sitting from the outside, the perfect Sunday School answer is always the first choice, and you won't find me disagreeing with that statement. But it's always easier said than done, so I know this is park of my sculpting. Much like the spinning of the wheel, my head is spinning with different thoughts:
"Just do it the way you feel is best"
"God's plan is going to be way better than the one you're planning."
It's as though my knowledge is battling against my emotions.
Today is day one of my journey to having a teachable heart, and it has been getting uncomfortable. But in turn, my relationship with Him has become the only thing I am focusing on, and it has been rewarding to my heart.
No longer am I going to talk about following Him, I am going to walk. Much like Moses I have been saying many excuses to not follow His plan for me, but I am ready to pick up my cross and carry it.
Following His calling is uncomfortable, but right now I couldn't be happier. Because comfort zones are nice, but nothing grows there.
I am ready to be teachable.
Hello my dears, I have recently purchased a new book and am long awaiting its arrival. Yes, you did in fact read that correctly. I bought a hard copy book instead of a ebook or nookbook or whatever else they are called. Don't get me wrong, I can enjoy reading from my kindle like most other people, but there is something about holding a real book in your hands.
Y'all, I know this is weird, but I swear the smell of a new book just has me all happy on the inside.
The only problem with me having new books is the fact that I can't put it down once I start reading it. I'll read it in the car, I'll read it at work, I'll read it when I should be sleeping. When it comes to a good book, I just cannot put the thing down.
I am just determined to have a library in my home full of books I have actually read. For some reason my imagination thinks of the library from The Beauty and The Beast, because there truly isn't one more beautiful than that one. You can never convince me otherwise. I mean, just look at it:
Anyways, back to the subject- my new book. I just ordered Christine Caine's new book, Unashamed. I am really really really looking forward to reading it and sharing how it is impacting my life with you all.
I am so glad you stopped by. I cannot wait to hear from you!